Happy Go Lucky?!

Saturday, 21 June 2008
Was happy, somehow some negative things still managed to happen. By 8 O'clock, Daddy still haven't back. I knew he must be drinking with his clients now. But he call back and say he coming back soon. But he didn't, not even when 10. Mum had went to eat herself. After she came back, dad still haven't back. Later Daddy came back. And he was drunk and he don't want to eat. SO now I had a drunken Daddy with his reason and a angry Mummy with her reason as well. So only me and sister go eat. We had a lot to chat. I had try to console sister. I always played this role. I seem to be the calmest person in family. they always came and ask my opinions for every things, for the subjects that Sister going to take, for the way Mummy should spend the money she got, the way Daddy should settle the problems. I don't know since when I had been the support for this family. As time goes by, I go silent and more silent. I felt worry and scared for each and every words that I say, it does bring an impact to my family. I had to prepared myself well for things so that things wouldn't get messed up. I started to feel proud of myself being arrogant but am I that good. Now do felt a bit angry for both parents. But whole family is now on my shoulder. Imagine 4 posts in a house, 3 dropped left one. If that one cracks before the other 3 got repaired, what will happened. So i try my best to hold myself on.

On our way back, someone blocked our car from exit. So I asked sister to horn. That guy went bank. And got 2 Indians ask us to horn then later I say it's ok. I know who the owner already. Then they ride motorcycle and left. Not long later, the owner of the car when out. But got 1 Indian asked me did I saw his motorcycle. I said no. He told me it's actually parked beside my sister's car. (So the 2 Indians took his motorcycle away since it's the only motorcycle there.) But the Indian uncle described it's as a 3 wheels motorcycle and he kept repeat that but the motorcycle I saw is 2 wheel and somehow I saw that guy got key to start engine, and they got 2 helmets. I couldn't bare anything so I said I didn't see. I'm tired enough. I don't hope anything else would happened. I don't want to go police station or like got in trap like 3 of them are actually pakat so that I'll have to pay them because I saw someone stole motorcycle but never stoop him and I might been one of them. I asked my sister to go as fast as possible and don't tell mum and dad where we eat and what happened. Sister said that just right.

Reach home. Dad slept. Woke him up and ask him eat while I tried to chat with mum to make her happier. And I think I do have some success but still have to see situation tomorrow.
Just try be happy.

Happy Go Lucky?! I think so.